2-3 month update

February And March  have come and gone I am so behind on my blogging OMG!   KJ is 15 weeks  and boy is he on a roll he just growing so fast,  he loves being held up on his feet and bouncing up and down on those little legs he is so playful, happy and adorable.  I love his little personality all ready.  I am enjoying him so much, I thank God I am able to stay home with him and watch him grow.  His smiles melt my heart every time.  He mimics me when I stick out my tongue I find it so funny we just sit there sticking out our tongues at each other I crack up every time.

Big Kev and Lil Kev both looking handsome in yellow.

KJ is definitely my alarm clock I always know its time to get up by his early morning coo's he is very chatty in the morning but I love it and once he sees I am up I get that big toothless smile.  He's on a schedule that works for us thankfully he is sleeping through the night, he goes down between 9-10pm and sleeps until 6-7am.  In the morning he's up for about an hour after he eats then he naps the rest of it until feeding time again. In the afternoon he's up longer we do some tummy time which he is great at he holds his head up very well and pushes him self up.  He is rolling over now back to tummy but not tummy to back yet.


 My little man is a big boy his last appointment he weighed in at 14.8 pounds, I am sure he weigh's more now and 23 1/2 inches tall Im sure he's taller now too. At his last appointment all was well he's doing all the things he should be doing in development and more,  the only concern I had was how much he was spitting up and of course google has some many crazy diagnoses as to why babies spit up I was freaking out what if he has one of the diagnoses I read about.  After speaking with his doctor we agreed to change his formula to Enfamil A.R. it's thicken formula with rice starch it helps keep the formula down.  Its helped a lot he still spit up but not as much as before, It seems his case of the spits up is more of a laundry problem then it is a medical one.

KJ and Leah with there Pediatrician Dr.Dos santos
She is an awesome doctor and very loving to our kids.

He was sick there for a little bit about 3 weeks ago he had RSV his nose was so stuffy and he was coughing, at one point it got so bad I took him to the hospital just to be sure he wasn't developing asthma and thankfully he wasn't but they did give him some saline inhalation treatments and told me to continue the treatments to help with the congestion and break up the mucus. The treatments really helped and he is much better now he still has the stuffy nose here and there but the doctor said it takes a long time for RSV to leave the system.  He has his 4 months appointment in 2 weeks.


This past weekend KJ and I went on out first road trip together with my sister and her son.  We went to Woodloch pines resort in the Pocono's for a Evenflo event.  KJ was so well behaved for the ride going and coming considering I forgot his binky home!   Once we were there every time we stepped out into the fresh air he went to sleep lol,  There we some fussy times when he was tired but it wouldn't last long before he was passed out.  When  He was awake he was alert looking around and taking everything in.  It was a great mommy and son time looking forward to more of it.

KJ loves his bumboo for like 10 mins at a time 

I love watching him sleep. mommy's big boy

KJ with his Godmommy, My bestfrend
the godmother of all my children.

My little guy is always smiling. Happy baby!

enjoying tummy time

His favorite toy ball

Little man in a big bed living like the prince he is
(for the weekend anyway)

Leah helping me sooth her brother, she's a pretty good helper

My babies!!!

1 month check-up/update.

 It's been a month (6 weeks to be exact) since KJ has been born, wow! The time is flying and he is getting so big.  Yesterday was KJ's 1 month check up I love going to his doctors office his doctor is friendly and very patient no rushing she takes her time answer all questions she's just great.  KJ is doing great he weighs 12lbs 8ozs now and 24 inches long thats mama big boy the doctor said he is a very tall baby which is understandable If you have seen my husband he is tall.  The doctor was very surprised to see him holding his head up so well while he was on his tummy and kicking his legs in a crawling motion.  I am a proud mommy can you tell?  KJ also had to get a vaccine :-( he was not a happy camper my poor baby, Leah had to get a flu shot as well since she's starting pre-school on monday so we had two crying babies which I am use too I deal with that on a daily basis but I think that was a first for Kevin we handled it well.  Overall it was a good visit both children are healthy and thriving.



  This past month I have had so much different emotions happy, exhausted, amazed, drained, fatigued, proud, I'm about to pull my hair out etc lol. I honestly don't remember night feedings and diaper changes being so hard on my body, I feel like Im getting old and if I don't get my sleep I turn into this different person with no patience grouchy and mean, Kevin that side of me Gwendlyn, he runs from Gwendlyn and I think soon the kids will.  My husband being the man he is decided to take KJ at night and let me get some sleep, As great as that sounds I feel guilty because he has works in the morning and I worry about him being tired at work, I am thankful for him doing that, it does help me function a lot better  during the day when I have the children.  Thankfully KJ is a great baby he sleeps 3-4 hours before he wakes up for a feed so Kevin gets some sleep in between. I think he will start sleeping through the night soon, If daddy doesn't wake him up at 4hrs he would continue sleeping so tonight we will test that and see how long he will sleep before waking up to eat.  Kevin is definitely a hands on daddy which he is happy about because Leah showed him no love when she was a baby she wanted no one else but mommy, it is a good feeling knowing I can turn to kevin for help when needed and he gets to have his daddy and son time.

KJ is such a delight he's playful and such a joy, He has his moments when he is bratty and wants to be held by mommy, daddy and Big sister Kairi :-) and of course we give in.  He is smiling now WITH EVERYONE  and not only leah, I love seeing his big toothless smiles they always melt my heart.  Leah adores him as well always wants to help and kiss him, every now and then she will try and compete with the baby if he's being held she wants to be held she even asked for a bottle really?  I make sure I split the attentions so she's not feeling left out.  Kairi also adores her brother as soon as she walks in she asks where's her baby brother she wants to hold him, She's a great help when I need to get his bottle together she holds him and comfort him until his milk is ready.  I am trying hard for him not to get use to being held all the time but its hard so far he's not too bad since he's a good sleeper in the day but he's starting to be more alert so I  put him down until he start fussing, then put him in his swing for sometime If he doesn't fall asleep and starts fussing then its on to the play mate where him and leah lay there and admire each other after he's bored of that I hold him for a little then start the cycle again.


Looking at KJ I see Hannah the face he makes when he cries is a splitting image of Hannah's when she cried I love the fact that looking at him I see my Hannah :-) another thing to keep her close and in my heart.  Speaking of his cry for the past few days KJ does this squealing noise/scream thing I think my boy is developing a temper he does this when I put him down and he doesn't want to be put down "well excuse me" I tell him lol.  My family is complete I have 3 beautiful children and 1 beautiful Angel watching over us there is nothing more I can ask for. I am happy to say I Gabrielle Joseph is done having children, yes it is true. However, I might adopt 1 or 2 more in the future I plan on doing foster care so that opinion is open, I want a big family I just don't want to carry anymore children my womb is close for business.  God Bless and Goodnight!



Here are some picture's of KJ and family in January.

He wasn't a happy camper this day.

Bath Time he loves his bathes.

KJ with one of his God fathers at Kai's b-day dinner

KJ with Granny and Pop Pop (Kevs Parents)

Playing with his hair curly mohawk

Big kev & Lil Kev enjoying a peaceful afternoon.

Rocking the straight hair mohawk.

LMBO I  think he's tired of the pictures...NAHHH 

KJ giving me all the kisses.

Leah and KJ my babies.

Kevin Michael Joseph Jr. 12/15/13.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! Finally after almost 3 weeks I finally found time to post about the birth and update of my prince Kevin Michael JosephJr. I cant believe on sunday KJ will be 3 weeks old time is flying, especially with no sleep the days are just going.  I am just thankful to be here and making through a crazy delivery, Everything started off normal and in a blink of an eye things went left.

Dec. 14th I went in to the hospital with contractions after getting an ultrasound done I was admitted due to low fluids I was excited and ready, after about 16 hours and a new day Dec 15th I was finally 10 cm dilated and ready to push, kept pushing, pushed some more after what seemed forever... still no baby.  The nurse went and spoke to my doctor because she noticed the baby's heart rate was elevated within no time she returned and told me I was gonna be prepped for a c-section.  At that moment I was so tired I didn't care how this baby was coming out I just wanted it all over.

Kevin Michael Joseph Jr. 8lbs 9ozs 21inches.

Daddy mastering swaddling.

I was wheeled into a small operating room (which I thought would be bigger on the TLC show Baby Story the OR rooms look huge) and within no time I heard his first cry I was drowsy I kept falling asleep I remember Big Kev bringing a picture of him I woke up and he was holding Our little guy I gave baby boy a kiss then fell asleep again when I woke up again I was still in the OR I remember wondering how long has it been I looked over at the clock  it was a little after 8am and all I kept hearing was whisperings at one point I heard the word Hematoma because I was so out of it I could not remember what the heck a hematoma was I am familiar with the word being the fact I was an EMT but at that moment I could not remember what it was.

Long story short I had a hematoma that wouldn't stop bleeding as the doctor was trying to control the hematoma I started bleeding everywhere else as the doctor explained it "everywhere I touched it would bleed" after 2 hrs she was able to control the bleeding and finally I was closed up and sent off to delivery.  As soon as I was wheeled into recovery there were my two handsome fellas waiting on me, the only two faces I wanted to see at that moment.  After I was seen by the nurse I was able to hold and feed KJ.  Recovery time is usually 2 hours but my doctor wanted me to stay there for 3 hours.  After 3 hours I was cleared to go up to the maternity floor BUT WAIT.... There's more, As I am waiting for transport my heart rate starts going bonkers 150's,160's,170's Now I am thinking its because I am hot, thirsty and tired my heart is working overtime to compensate make sense right?

The doctor comes in and my alarms are going off my blood pressure is low but my heart rate is high and the games begin she comes in and asks if I am ok I said yes but I am thirsty,hot, and tired.  The doctor looks at my vitals and starts ordering an EKG, a cat scan,blood work, calling in all the different types of doctors I am frustrated  because I just want to go up to the mommy and baby floor and enjoy my new born.  Well, after my blood work and cat scan came back they saw that I had another hematoma the size of football and I was bleeding internally.... REALLY??

Everything went really fast from there IV's on one arm 2 bags of blood being pumped into my other arm and I just laying there wondering what is next? I was rushed off to SICU (surgical intensive care unit) where the doctors were going back and forth on if they should prep me for surgery but because of what already happened in the OR just a few hours ago that had to be the last opinion.  After 4 blood transfusions, being in the ICU,  having blood drawn every 3 hrs and other medications and most importantly God said It wasn't my time yet the bleeding stopped.  It was hard being in the ICU I couldn't see my baby I couldn't see my girls, this wasn't the way I envisioned my last delivery to be.  After 4 days in the ICU I was released to the high risk maternity floor. After a week in the hospital and praying to go home after dealing with fevers being told I couldn't go home until I was fever free for  I was released and ready to go home.

3 weeks later all is good I am back to normal for the most part, Lil KJ is growing and doing great gaining weight and height.  He's a quiet baby for the most part just make sure his pamper is clean, belly is full, and he's comfortable he will sleep until it is time to do it all again. Leah my 2 year old wants to know when will he wake up and play I tell don't worry soon she will beg for him to take a nap ;-) Kairi my oldest Hasn't seen him since he was born unfortunately, she's been with her dad and his family for the holiday Today she is coming for the weekend she's excited to see him and I am excited to see her with him too.  I can't wait for the day when I will have all my children together with me everyday but thats a whole other blog.


Here's some pictures of the family meeting Lil Kev.  It takes a village to raise a child, These are the people in my village and the people that will always be there to help raise teach and instill values, spiritual teaching and love to our children.  ( a few people missing as soon as I get pictures with them and Kj they will be added to the village :-) you all know who you are)

Leah meeting her brother for the first time

Leah holding her brother for he first time

Grandma (my Mommy) Holding her grandson for the first time

Kairi holding her  brother (love her smile)

Auntie/Godmommy  taking in her  new love.

Big Kev and Lil Kev bonding

Thankful to God for keeping me here to continue watching my children grow, I wanna see my grand kids matter of fact Im greedy I wanna live to see my great-grand kids my God can do it... 2014 is already a great year,  Again I want to wish everyone a Happy,blessed, and prosperous year.

39 weeks 2days (5days to go)

The time is near and I cannot wait the past month has been tiring and long,  Im anxious to see him.

This pregnancy has gone by so fast and I thank God, with Hannah it was a loooong pregnancy, I wasn't complaining I didn't want my pregnancy with her to end I knew inside of me she was safe.  This time is the complete opposite it just flew by.  On Tuesday I went to my weekly OB appointment and of course the usual once I got on the NST he kept me on for 45 mins and then said go to the hospital *sighs* but a part of me wanted to go just to make sure nothing was wrong cause this doctor was driving me nuts every week with the same speech.

I went to the hospital, same hospital where Hannah was born every time I walk in there I feel close to her so much memories, that was our second home and of course sad because she is no longer with me, physically anyway.  The nurse put me on the monitor and he was bouncing around at first, I forgot to mention I made sure I ate before I went to the hospital just in case, then he went back to sleep. The nurse explained what I've been hearing when he's at rest his rate should still jump about 5 numbers up his was 2 or 3 number when he is at rest.

My doctor came down and said he wanted to do an ultrasound before sending me home just to make sure my fluid levels were good and of course my levels were perfect! Like I knew they would be My God has the final say.  Before my Doctor sent me over to the hospital he checked me and my cervix is starting to soften he wants me to come back this week on friday if there is more progress he will go ahead and induce me so this weekend could be it Yay!! But of course I still have stuff to do, today is crunch time I work better under pressure anyway...or so I tell myself.

To be honest Kev will do all the hard work putting together everything and placing it where I want it, I will be the pointer :-) you ladies know how it goes.  We still have some straggling boxes we have to unpack not sure if I mentioned us moving before just in case I didn't We moved about 2 weeks ago were pretty settled in besides those last few boxes I just mentioned.  Well back to work :-)

Keep us in your prayers and look out for another post either tomorrow or saturday.

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39 weeks and feeling it 

Had a little photo bomber 

37weeks ( 3 weeks to go) The week of Thanksgiving!!

The time is so near yet so FAR....To me anyway.  Tuesday was an exciting day,  I had my ultrasound done we got to see our little man be uncooperative as usual but he is healthy and growing very big after the technician  checked everything she did measuring, His limbs and head are about a week bigger but his stomach is at 40 weeks she tried a few more times to see if it was an error and it kept getting bigger and bigger lol it went from 39weeks and some days, to 40weeks and some days. YIKES!!!

After our wonderful visit with our boy I had some time to kill so kev and I went thanksgiving shopping and dropped it off to my mom since thats where thanksgiving was going to be this year.  I got on that turkey cleaned him up and soaked him down. Once all that was done it was time to end to my weekly OB appointment. The new routine when I go for my appointments is I have to be hooked up to the NST for about 30 mins which monitors the baby's movement and for contractions.  This time I think things went better our little guy didn't move as much as they wanted him to move but he moved more then he did the first time.

Overall doctor was satisfied, he checked for any change nothing yet I wasn't mad because I wanted to enjoy thanksgiving without any worry and I did. Thanksgiving was great of course there was some drama but nothing worth me talking about what matter was my family was there and we had a great time. My Mom, sister, oldest daughter and I came together and cooked a wonderful meal. It was great to watch my daughter help with cutting up the greens or whatever task was given she's  awesome and  growing so much If I keep thinking and typing about it Im gonna start tearing up. Of course my two year old did her job in getting into everything, being in the way and getting kicked out the kitchen but that didn't stop her from coming back every time trying to steal cheese or whatever she could get her hands on.

I was hoping to eat a lot more then I did but its something about when your the cook, once the food is done your not as hungry as those who were waiting, I did eat everything on my plate.  Im sure I will  make up for it in the next few days with leftovers. 

My mom with the girls.

My oldest kai with her aunty. leah and me in the back.

leah patiently waiting for her food.

hubby carving the trukey.

I am thankful for life And so happy that I didn't let trails, tribulations, or people bring me down through out life I am still me and that will never change. I couldn't imagine living life being bitter,mean, and unhappy I've seen people like that and it doesn't look enjoyable.  I definitely thank my heavenly father for keeping me without him I don't even wanna know what my life would look like so I am very thankful.

My brother,mom and the girls.

36 weeks (4 weeks left)

WHAT A DAY!! * sighs* Lets start with my eye doctor appointment, I decided I wanted to get contacts for the big day I usually have glasses on and between them getting foggy or in the way I decided I didn't want to have them on.  Well, after getting the eye exam the doctor felt it wasn't a good idea to get the contacts due to a problem in my left eye, I was so disappointed and refused to accept that so I asked for my prescription and was gonna call 1-800-contacts to get what I wanted.  My dear husband didn't think that was a good idea and didn't want to me damage my eyes like the doctor said could happen.... So unfortunately I listened to my hubby and just picked out new glasses still not happy but what I can I do.


After I finished whining and pouting I went home to finish packing not my baby bag (which I need to do as well) but packing up our belongings WE ARE MOVING, I am so excited it's a bigger place since of course we need more space, we signed our lease today and retrieved our keys so for the next two weeks packing.. packing.. packing..  I will include packing mines and baby's bag as well into all that packing.


After some packing it was time to get ready for my doctors appointment.  Surprisingly the doctor was already there when we got there and we didn't have to wait long.  Since I am 36 weeks now the doctor will monitor the babies for movement, contractions and heart rate ( this is where the story gets interesting) I get hooked up to the monitor his heart rate is nice and strong after 30 minutes the medical assistant came in and says they need to get the baby to  wake up and move she shook my belly, rub it, gave me a chocolate almond bar asked if I ate? which I did I made sure I made a stop before going in to the doctors office all these things and he still would not wake up after an hour of nothing the doctor insisted I go eat a full meal...again or of to the hospital he was sending me.  #aintnobodygottimefadat



I went to my newly found favorite caribbean restaurant and ordered some yummy peas and rice with stew chicken cabbage the works.. I thought I wasn't hungry but boy I tore that food up washed it down with a pineapple Jamaican soda and was ready to go back to the doctor, got hooked back up to the monitor. this little boy is stubborn but eventually he started slowly moving around then bouncing around and the monitor was finally picking up his movement and all was good.  Once that was over I got some blood drawn and a culture was done after 4 hours we were done. OH the doctor talked about his size and how every time he measures my stomach its bigger and bigger I already know he's gonna be a big boy as long as I can push him out I am ok with that.  He checked me (how joyful NOT!) His head is still high he hasn't even dropped yet, so no thanksgiving baby. I also gained 2 pounds yay!! Now my appointment are every week :-)

I was wasn't worried or panicked as long as I heard that heartbeat I knew he was fine plus Im use to my little guy he's not much of a mover he sleeps mosts of the time and is up...well whenever he wants to be up lol.  I let leah start talking to him that usually gets him moving or  I poke at him he definitely doesn't like that.  At 36 weeks Im so uncomfortable Im always in the bathroom and sleep?? psssh what is that I dont even know anymore but I am excited and I cant wait to see his beautiful face he is so worth it.  Once we are moved and everything is put up and together I will post pictures.

36weeks with 4 weeks/28 days left.. Goodnight and God bless

34 weeks (6 weeks to go)

Ok so I lied its been more than 2 weeks since I last posted anything, I cant believe that much time has passed I would say im gonna do tomorrow and keep putting it off for the next day and here we are 4 weeks later wowzers!!.  In all fairness (to me) I didn't have time not because I was busy doing a nursery or anything but my days would just go by I wake up with my little one we eat breakfast, we watch cartoons.  At 10am we watch wendy "How you doin?"11am the view, noon the news then lunch time after lunch I might take a nap with leah but I don't like taking naps because I always wake up feeling nauseous and just blah.

Lately I've been doing more getting rid of clothes and junk we have around the house making space for  our little guy. It was a slow process I would start and get tired and not get back to it until the next day or 2.  Kevin has been a great help on his day off we get a lot done he's all about business, Thank god he is about business if it was up to me it wouldn't get done. Im just tired and huge.  It's overwhelming having so much to do but no energy to do it

  I finally got around to doing the baby shopping before we went shopping I was trying to make a list of everything he needs and I would go blank I couldn't remember what babies needed lol,  On one of my baby emails I get suggested I get all things the baby would need for the first 6 weeks that really helped me as I made my list.  It didn't help me with over buying though everything in there was so cute and I wanted it all. I went a little crazy in their but stayed on what he needed. There's a few things I have to get but for the most part we are set, just have to wash the clothes and put them away.

I always had an image of how I would dress my little boy and it's the way I want to see him dress as a grown man clean cut, well put together, just SHARP.  He has a great role model to look up to his daddy so hopefully he will follow in his daddy's steps and be sharp.  I cant wait to see him in his church suits and cardigans. Im gonna love dressing him like a little man.

With 6 weeks left I am getting so excited and impatient I want him here in my arms.  When I watch baby stories leah always asks when is her baby brother gonna be here and I tell her soon wishing I could say tomorrow!!.  Yesterday we went for my doctor's appointment all is good my sugar test came back negative yay!! for that, however my iron is a little low so now I have to take 2 iron pills a day instead of one.

unfortunately I didn't remember to take pics of the outfits until we were almost done :-( but here are two  of them. soon I will 

Other then that all was great he listened to his heart beat it was strong and going, The doctor wants me to get another ultrasound in 3 weeks  to see how much bigger he is now the last ultrasound he was 3lbs 12ozs which puts him in the 75 percentile.  AS long as I can push him out im good Im not even thinking about the other options I have tunnel vision to anything else. 

Leah's and I drawings together at arts and craft time.  She wanted our picture put up

6 weeks 41 more days until our prince is here. Keep us in your prayers.

34 weeks preggo